Boring and vulnerable

   It used to be very difficult to stay in a boring mode, just like a young puppy. I had to have something to play with and to be absored in. It was out of the question to hold more than ten minutes in a silence mood. I was always stranded by something or someone to share a moment of my time. I was at a loss what to do if I was left all alone. It was one of distinctive emotional statuses until I moved to the next level of the emotional ladder.

   I became so vulnerable after that period, and I felt I was all by myself, even being surrounded with people. It appeared to me that they didn't understand what I had gone through. I lost the connection somewhere along the line between them. It was time of struggle to establish where my indentity standed for. Besides this, I was deeply into a meaningful meaning per se. I didn't know where it was orginated from, just stood there in front of me.

   Basically, two things come and go. And now I am sitting on a couch in the absence of two things. I am staying calm and peace with any constant interuptions. No rush. That holds me mostly these days.

   Am I being lazy too much ?