Extremely Exhausted

   I was dead tired yesterday because I was a kind busy to hang around the downtown. I felt the status of fatigue was getting worse to stay a place surrounded by a full pack of people. I knew they were not attacking me and not hostile at all. But I was rushed to look for some place to get comfortable with even it was not a long trip to move around.

 

   I was a third party who were not associated with the negotiation. The conflicts were all over, and they were arguing to persuade others to take advantage of. The point were clear and simple: they were asking for more money to be given to. It was in the heart of a zero sum game. I didn't have to say a word due to the absence of participation in that matter. It would be fair to admit that I was not allowed to do so anyway. To be honest, I was trying to enjoy what I faced with as long as I could be objective as an observer.

 

   I don't feel any disappointment to go through chaos to hassle around in a juggle. And I don't deny it has been a way of living for so long in the name of survival.

 

   The thing was that I was not fit to that situation naturally. And I had a feeling that I was lucky to be alive up to now out of that jungle.

 

   It was a chance to see I wasn't not a natural worrior to fight in a battle field to conquer all the territory I would get. Besides, I was old enough to realize who I was.