A secret admirer

   I always have been wondering what it would be like becoming a secret admirer. A person, with a very neutral attitude toward other people, tends to show little cohesiveness or to possess a lack of binding to others. I happen to be one of them, in that category. Eventually, I try to get into something I would have never had before to equalize the emotional deficit.

   Maybe I was putting on the magnitude of human relationships too much, even I was standing on an extremely coincidental world. And also I was desperately searching for probable causes for the final coming end.

   As a matter of fact, I got turned down just like that. It was definitely far over my imagination.