Prep for Something

To be honest with myself, it is often strange to notice the situation like although everyone including myself duly understand and accept the limit of life expectancy, (when time is near) they tend to hold on their lives so desperately to live a little longer.

Of course, I'm not in a desperate situation presently. But that doesn't mean I should follow and do the same stuff just like others when my time comes.

All I want for my time is to face reality that I can't help it along with calmness and peace. Well, this kind of idea often becomes just a monologue for myself. When I have a chance to glance at confirming that others' vitality and resilience of life go above my boundary, I am always in doubts whether I would be in that position as well. And I talk to myself I would rather not to do that.

What should be prepared here is the need for some kind of manual, such as an emergency procedure in case of a crisis. The compulsion that I must keep my own authority and dignity is silently emerged while hesitantly following.

However, I think the fragmented texts that are probably acquired through reading comprenension can not be used in the end. This is because the bundle of words read by the eyes is not converted to my point of view that easily.

So constant recognition and solid training are necessary to prepare for the exhibition.