Greatness, not a Primitive Reason for Existence

I used to be confused with the statement that greatness is a sole reason for its survival. And also I sometimes talked to myself that it might be the misleading conception that anything less would be improper to stay on the arena if I were not possessed with its credentials.

 

While I was dictated with this belief, I was at a loss, not being able to overcome this kind of deficiency frequently. It was mostly painful and horrible the other times. But when I was in the middle of the crisis, I was virtually reluctant to pursue the other way around and to consolidate reality that I was confronting with theory that I was dreaming of. I was totally naive so to speak.

 

Still, I can not figure out what caused this kind of mess so intense that I was halted and stranded in the hole. All I can think of is that I was immature and not smart enough to pursue other alternatives for sure.

Now I would diagnose its symptom as a strong desire toward cohesiveness in superiority of myself at most. And the thing is that I never reach where I used to wish to attend in. However, I never knew exactly where I was standing on.

 

Moreover, there are too many things that I could not figure out how to solve with, and there are too many struggles that I am not entitled to overcome.

 

But as long as I am willing to confront with it, there would be a way to tackle around at least.

 

That is all I could count on lately.