The End of Emptiness and Skepticism

   The long-held nihilism and skepticism are getting thinner. And even those ideas don't mean much to me at all lately. I prefer to check to the end than to stop, being worthless and blaming on others. However, it isn't something that is rooted and orginated from an absolute wishful thinking. I don't think I am positive by all means. But I am beginning to concentrate on what I am doing and pessimism no longer holds me how much a situation doesn't look good. In other words, I am beginning to understand the odds I would end up a failure are more than fifty percent at least. So I'm not afraid of unrisen casualities that much, which makes my view changed into something solid and rigid to look forward to moving toward from now on. And I'm not complaing about an inch progress at a time.

   How does this happen ? What makes this kind of the dramatic change ?

   I am open to answers that have been so intolerable. Most importantly, I don't have to look around to the limit. Each has its own reason for existence and its correponding way of seeking. It's just like that.

   I just have to devote myself to answering my reasons.