A Warrior (1)

   If I were a true warrior, I would have interpreted the way I had encountered differently. In other words, I would have lived in a different choice or path as I had encountered the reality that I did hassle with. Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself. Nor I'm not intending to feel lots of regrets on me. What I'm interested in me is what kind(s) and type(s) of warrior instincts I was born to.

   I know I'm a warrior in some sense. Because I've dealt with this spirit since I was getting into the stage of puberty. And I still remember vividly the moment that I felt inside to get connected with a kind of urgent competitive atmosphere in search of victory. I couldn't explain what it was all about but now I know it is a warrior spirit of a natural born.

   On the other hand, I was also shy and self centered in some sense. Obviously, I was turning my attention into myself so deeply as a result of this. Which made me fight against myself mostly without knowing the limit that I should have reached.

   Now I would call this a self defeated warrior no matter what I did. Because I was fighting against the unidentifed and undescribed target of myself.