At This Very Moment

   Why am I being so sentimental, at least for a while, even though I frequently say I'm a follower of the mechanistic worldview ? Why am I being ruled by connected results in that everything is just an electical or chemical reaction ? Of course, I suspect that it's a temporary error or a state of mind, but after that, it always occurs to ask the same question again.

   Over time, things gradually return to where it used to be without any endeavour. Sometimes I take the natural step of disappearing into the other side of my memory like the images in a movie or some sentences in a book. However, the process of occurrence and extinction seems to consist of something similar but different in each case. So whenever I face with it, I always feel like I'm starting something new. Nevertheless, after passing through, it is as clear as it was. I'm going back to where I belonged to.

   So in the end, a whole thing would be a process that repeats one at a time. And it could be a continuous thing until it is completely stopped. What would be special after that ? That' why I think this moment is It after all.