The Next Best Possible Solution

 

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  A decision process like 'all or nothing' was very easy to follow since it always fit to my style. I was born with that way of natural characteristics in some sense. Or I was too naive to realize what it meant to me, or too brave to ignore what it brought into. It was definitely more than stubborn.

   I took all the consequences that could possibly bring to me along the line of time passed as far as I remembered. Although it was not my intention to be waived from my psychological tensions, I've been relieved out of the period of so called a probation time that I did what I had to do. I was not the happiest person when I realized I had paid all my dues, but I felt like being free that I didn't have to belong to anything anymore. I thought I finally gained the status of pure independence without associating to something that I wouldn't want to.

   I had an imaginative spacious room to breathe as much as I could. And that was the time to consider the next best possible solution for my life. Because I was entitled to move freely as I wished to.

   I'm still looking for the next one, but maybe I won't be able to find the one that I've been pursuing if that becomes 'all or nothing' again.