Objectively Myself

 

I can't remember exactly when, but there was a time when the need to look at myself objectively was strong internally. Ever since then, whenever I get a chance, I have developed the habit of observing and analyzing my thoughts and actions from the perspective of a third person.

There have been times when some people have been fascinated by the argument that it is desirable to accept and confirm oneself as the only being in this world, and to put an extra layer of observation and evaluation on oneself. The problem is that objectifying myself often tends to focus on critical tendencies, leading to extreme self-sacrifice. In other words, it means that the character of self-accusation is stronger than self-rationalization.

Then I came across the phrase 'Every human being has a fear of being explained and wants to be understood'. Then, I recalled the time when I thought of finding myself with objectivity, and looked back at the time we spent together. But no matter how much I turned around, I couldn't find the feeling of fear about explaining myself. After trying enough to satisfy myself through several attempts, I said the following to myself.

'Am I not aware of my present state, but of the state I want to be or the state I do not want to be?' Then, although the attempt is grand and austere, isn't it that the objectivity has already been lost from the start?

That is why it is said that 'it is very difficult to separate one's introspection from the desire for self-rationalization or self-accusation'. However, even if complete objectification is impossible, if there is a slight improvement or even a small improvement, we try to be satisfied with it. And if many people pay attention to this part - the objectification of the self - and make an effort, at least public and private affairs will be clearly distinguished, and the imagination of the utilitarian button is grandly widened.