To Resist Emotional Blackmail

   Things could go wrong and even worse. I was thinking about so called 'Murphy's Law'. Everything turned out to be a treat one by one. I was searching for a safety value to get even. This time, drinking worked for me in spite of the temporary blackout syndrome. While I was drinking, I talked to myself that this was one in ten years that such a thing would occur. I knew I had too much. But on the other hand, who cares ? I could have three times left for my entire life if I were allowed to live up to eighties something. I was brave as I was getting drunken. I lost a half day, but I could get over with the emotional blackmail. After I reached the final stage of calm, I was asking my own justification in order to hide some regrets if there were. The funny thing about this question was that I provided myself with the extraordinary comment; it definitely gave me a chance to get inspired to find or at least to place the solution. Because I found some documents that I never thought of its existence. Which eventually led me into the remedy after all.

   This is it. It won't happen any more. I'm not that young nor strong enough holding this kind behavior. 

   Life is meant to be tough, always tougher than what I have expected.