Too Heavy to Handle With

   I wasn't capable of doing something that I really wishsed to. I was lost and stranded by the wall that I never able to break through. I was so desperate that I would deny myself whose pride and self esteem would stay a level of negative sense. Which sometims gave me a huge trouble that I couldn't get away from.

   The short cut to cope with this matter was to avoid things that weren't happened yet and then put them into the category that I wouldn't be able to do. The result was there was nothing left that I would do.

   If I have not been that skeptical about myself, probably I would take other paths when I needed the most. But I was blocked out by my inner voices that were not appropriate at all. I lost lots of time doing unnecessary things to take care of. It was definitely too heavy to handle with all by myself.

   Still, time to time I feel  a kind of regret the fact that why I was stucked the way I was even I felt it wasn't quite right frequently. But it has passed already and there is no other way to reset again.

   Apparently, the best lesson I could think of is that there is something I never able to understand, while I am walking on that track.