Some Recollection As of Today

   I don't get any pleasure by criticizing on others. Besides, I don't enjoy talking behind someone's back. I guess all those things are orginated from my own personality.

   I've been an inter independent posture since I was little. To make things drive this way, I've not attached to cohesive emotional communications since I was little. I was a kind of left alone to see around what's going on. The interesting observation concering to this issue is that I've never felt like being uncomfortable with this situation, not once, as far as I remember. Rather I've frequently absorbed in building an own world in mind without spilling it over to others. It's been enjoyable and memorable things throught my life time to time although my world was never formed at all, not a single chance. 

   In the middle of this progress, I've lost touch with others pretty seriously. I didn't care about others that much. And I didn't feel any pressure with that, either. I was found of a little anti social traces occasionally. But that didn't hurt me at all in some sense. 

   Once I was trying to fix this one with a great deal of effort, and I was exhausted to do against my nature. It was long time ago when I've tried to change something on my mind in an intensive mode.

   Now I have to live with what I am. And if possible, get some values out of it.