Not So Special - Life (8)

   First of all, I got to admit that I am one of the not so special group in terms of competence and talent. And sometimes I still wonder why I am being isolated(?) from that group. But it gives me the comfort zone (for sure) to realize that I am not being bothered to be one of them over my fair jurisdiction at least.

   That doesn't mean I don't care about and for anything anymore. I absolutely have a way to go in front of me, but I'm not hassled by an unexpected outcome by  much. Because I guess I know where I should go from now on in a cognitive level.

   Life is not meant to be so great at all. And living is not always on stage at all. I might be need attention and glory on stage once in a while. But that's about it.

   But the naive misconception that everyday would be a huge parade in the garden might bring a poison to solely stay focused on the above. So every moment I had exchanged my preciousness with anguish mostly.

   After wasting time and exhausting energy, I'm muttering life is not so great.

   This does not mean that I'm desperately chasing self-rationalization nor I expect it for re-rolling on the screen even if I'm allowed to have the second chance.

   All I want for this review is to just look at and appraise what went wrong at some point of my life.